Except for this blog I've been unplugged for three days now.
It's actually kinda nice having less input. It's like my mind just has more room or something. It's hard to describe the difference because it's pretty much the same stuff, just without all the background noise: no feed, no status updates, no weather report on the horizon, no directions when I need to go somewhere, nothing. But it's not just that it's less info. Without the constant VC updates I feel like I'm really seeing for the first time.
And oh my god my dreams are so crazy.
Without the VC I don't have any control over what I'm dreaming anymore, which is kind of scary, but at the same time pretty exciting too. I just fall asleep and whatever pops into my head is what I dream about. The first night I had some crazy nightmares where I was getting chased, but most of it has been really amazing.
Last night I had a dream where there wasn't any VC info anywhere. I was in the woods wandering down this path and it was really beautiful with the light just coming in through the canopy, but it was getting dark quick and I got kinda scared, but I kept putting one foot in front of the other and eventually after what seemed like a really long time I came out on this fair ground. There were neon lights everywhere and these crazy carny type guys trying to sell me stuff, but I just ignored them, but anyway, I don't even know why I'm writing all this; it was just crazy. I mean I've never been in the woods, or to a fair ground for that matter, but my mind just goes places now that I'm unplugged.
It's not like I would have ever picked that dream if I was making a suggestion list before I went to sleep, but now that I had it, I'm pretty glad that I did. It's kind of like being unplugged in general. It's definitely not what expected, but I don't think I want to go back either. Besides, after what happened with Karen my old firsties are probably more than happy to see me go.
I'm sure my parents figure I'm either dead or in a gang by now. I don't show up on any VC's, there are no posts on any of my walls and none of my friends have seen me, so pretty much I don't exist. If they did go through the trouble of calling the police I doubt they would follow up without any digital leads. If they can't track you, you may as well be a ghost.
But whatever, I'm not plugging back in. They can search for my body off the grid if it's that important to them. It's not like I've really gone that far, but the city's a big place. Lots of little corners to hide in if you know where to look.
